(the picture has nothing to do with this post. just sayin'. :)
it feels so weird, and a little frightening. i guess i always expected it, but so soon? why does change have to happen, why do people have to grow up and why do people move on to new and, undeniably, better things, and leave other people, not really behind, but different? i avoid thinking about it all the time because it just feel strange.
see, in only seventeen days, my eldest brother is marrying his beautiful fiance. oh, she is a perfectly lovely girl, and i am really excited to have her as my sister, but it is strange to realize that we are all growing up and moving on from our childhoods. and it is hard to know that nothing will ever be the same, no matter how much i want it to stay normal and comfortable. people change, and move on, and relationships are never the same as time passes.
and in only fourteen days, i turn seventeen. my best friend and i were talking about it today, and we both felt that we are so much older than we were last year. it feels as though a lot of things have changed and we are now more experienced and just different. her older sister is getting married in a few months, she is going to college. i spent two months away from home, and my brother is getting married, and it just seems like this year has been so full of changes and getting used to differences.
i guess all this is to say: i'm not sure i'm okay with all the changes. but i'm learning to accept them. i guess change is part of life, and there is no way that we can stop it.